Depression Hurts

My Tug of War

My thoughts keep churning and twisting
From all my mixed emotions,
Being trapped in my tug of war
Like an imprudent dream that I keep having

Why do I feel this way?
Thoughts are like a shooting star
That flashes through my mind
Through the great division within my soul

0 the thoughts inside my head
The light that ignites my soul is burning my heart
A feeling that begs for me to reach out
Hurting me like a splitting headache

I am scared to know what it's like to be loved
Maybe I'm not marked for happiness
But as amazing as some people are
It's not enough to make me believe I am worthy

Can anyone ever actually understand me?
Is it impossible?
Well, I always am alone,
Trapped in my tug of war?